Thursday, February 2, 2012

离别


有人说,失恋的滋味很苦涩,也有人说失败的滋味最苦涩。而我觉得孤单与离别最令人难受了。今天是个普遍的星期四,一个普遍的上课天,但我的生活却因为少了一个重要的朋友而有一点点的不一样。。。

也许刚开始认识这个人是,也是没什么特别的普通朋友。相处久了后,却在心中留下一个重要的地位。曾经有人天天送晚餐到我房,当时并不觉得有什么出奇。但如今要在宿舍里看到他根本就是一个很显见很稀有的机会了。

我很害怕分开的感觉,在他临走前愿意初次逃课都要和他出去玩。看了一部很烂的电影,吃了一顿饭,拥挤在一辆KTM。临走的那一晚,他穿着红色衬衫来到我房,谈谈天,解决他对他的承诺。我害怕分开的那种痛楚,所以不跟随他到临走的一刻,也不愿意看他最后一次踏出我房的背影。心里真的好酸。

今天一回到宿舍,他已经不在了。坐在书桌上,看见他在我布告栏上的涂鸦,我又想到他了。好怀念我们三人一起在床上聊天的夜晚,好怀念你在我不开心时陪在我身边,好怀念一起去唱K,买衣服的日子,那些都是我遗失了的美好。不是说过要教我化学的吗?一天可以为我从D变B,你好厉害!

刚刚又带着思念的心情走上他房间。平时很快就到的三楼,今天步伐怎么变得如此沉重?把门轻轻的打开,那熟悉的座位已经空了,那温暖的沙滩也不见了,而他更是已经离开了,自留下一堆笔记给我。心里好沉重,眼泪不断直流,要止却止不到。到底要几时才能平复这心情呢?

好久都没这么伤心过了,平时说要走,但还是会见面。但这次的离别,真的很难再见面了。想起难民唱说了再见和转身之后那含泪的一刻,眼泪怎么都不停的留下啊?

朋友,谢谢你!再见了。祝你前途无量,也但愿你不会忘了我。。。。

也许这是你在我心中留下的一句话吧~

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Simply Emotions?

A lot is running through my mind now. Trying to adapt this whole new sem and year. Well I suppose not everything is smooth though. Results became one of my concerns, Unit 6, my attitude (laziness) and environment stress rush through every single vessel in my body. How could I live with this?

Everyone is working hard already. CNY in a weeks' time, trial in a months' time! Yet I still laze around and cannot focus on my studies. W.H.Y? Besides, I fell like withdrawing from the crowd lately. Less outing perhaps? Less chit-chats perhaps? That's not something I want though, but it just comes naturally that I couldn't talk much to people sometimes. Somehow, I guess I lost my ability to communicate.

Well, sometimes we just need to learn how to adapt. Study environment huh? Hmmm, I guess I just have to aim for the best and work for it. I hope these emotions will slip away eventually. God bless everyone!

Happy chinese new year in advance.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Waiting For The End


It's December again. Few more days before saying goodbye to 2011.

This sem break is quite fruitful. Although it get bored near the end.

Flash back what I had done in December...


Tour guiding in Alor Star

D D Thai

AS Tower

Trip to Langkawi

Langkawi Sky Bridge


Pulau Paya
Snorkelling

Shah Alam

With Lucas

Tongku aunty

Claire

With sister Yong Wei


No progress with my unit 6, but I'm satisfied with my holidays.

With lots of love, miss you 2011. 2012, be nice!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

沙滩上的故事

这是一则鱼与沙滩生物的故事。


很久很久以前,一条淡水鱼一直住在平淡的淡水河流中。它向往到大海那繁华的世界看看。据说那儿什么有,从渺小的浮游生物到巨大的蓝鲸,各种各类前所未见过的生物都有。一天,小鱼终于鼓起勇气游到大海中。它尝了尝带有咸味的海水。起初还觉得很特别,而且在海水中更容易浮起,开始喜欢上大海洋的生活了。

不过渐渐的,小鱼开始发现大海并不是想象中那么简单,当中潜伏着许许多多意外中的危险。一天小鱼居处附近出现了一个海胆。在小鱼没留意的时候,海胆忽然涨起来,把小鱼给刺伤了。受了伤的小鱼,搁岸在一个荒岛上。荒岛上的沙滩很温暖,是前所未有的安全感。这时一只也受了伤的沙滩生物出现在小鱼身旁。它们俩互相照应,在那个温暖的沙滩上疗伤。

“我不想回大海了”小鱼说。
“你看大海多么迷人,而且还有海豚,鲸鱼,不好吗?” 沙滩生物安慰说道。
“可是。。。我好害怕,害怕再次受伤”
“大海始终是你的家,总有一天你也得回去的,别害怕。若受伤了,过来这儿疗伤歇息吧!”

从此,鱼把沙滩生物当成了好朋友。开心与不开心都会和沙滩生物分享。曾几何时,鱼又变成了两栖类?也许鱼进化了,再难熬下总得学会活下去。沙滩生物更是一直呵护着小鱼,也让它学会了成长。

回到大海中,小鱼更加坚强的面对大浪,也许。。。是从那沙滩生物上学来的吧。在艰难,沙滩生物仍然背着身后笨重的“家”往大海一次又一次的爬去。被浪冲走了,又从新爬起过。

一天,小鱼再次上岸了,想找沙滩生物一起叙旧。不过,沙滩生物不见了。或许它已搬到另一个沙滩去了吧。小鱼等了好久,但沙滩生物始终没出现。它不舍了,它又再受伤了了。。。原来那天就是它们见面的最后一天。。。。。



对我生命中的沙滩生物说:

无论你身在何方,你仍然是我心中重要的生物。或许海浪会把我们在沙滩上留下的足迹冲走,但我们一同度过的时光我都回永远珍惜。曾经在我脆弱是伸出援手,也曾经为我带来不少麻烦与欢乐。其实一直都抱着希望将来还会见面,但是也许我只是你生命中擦肩而过的过客?我无暇多想,也无能揣摩未来。就让上帝决定我们的缘分吧。想说的太多,也许是表达问题,也或许是舍不得的缘故,许许多多的不舍就让它留在心中吧。我看见你的不完美,你为了保护自己而带上的面具。但我希望你无需在我面前强颜欢笑,总得让鱼有帮助沙滩生物的机会。沙滩动物没了,我不舍得,海滩也不再亮丽,不再温暖了。当然希望他日会重逢,只是说如果。。。如果以后不再见面了,就记得我们曾经有过的回忆,也记得那第一次也可能是最后一次的拥抱。真的很温暖~你带给我的点点滴滴,在心里。谢谢你!沙滩生物,你知道你是谁。



Friday, November 25, 2011

那些年,我们班上没有女孩



那些年,我曾经就读过一所热血沸腾的男校。据说那时一所名校,而且许多风云人物都在那儿诞生。所以我无暇多想,也无重选择,只好报名就读。男校?影响中是全部yeng yeng的,老师也应该管教没那么严厉,功课少,娱乐多吧。我还以为会变成一个文武双全,血气方刚的少男。怎么知道“文”还算可以啦,“武”?更本别谈了,因为我就是运动白痴。进了男校,我才发现我的幻想与真实距离太远了。

男校?是这样的吗?才没呢!!!

真可悲啊,暗恋班上女同学的滋味是怎样的呢?多希望班上有个长发飘溢,才华洋溢,样貌清秀的女同学。在音乐室里弹奏着,多么迷人啊!大概是这个样子的吧。会乐器的~不管是男或女,都很有魅力哦。
帅!

初恋的感觉到底是如何的呢?有人说甜蜜蜜的,就像吃红豆冰一样。到底是不是真的?

初恋像一袋红豆冰,转眼便溶掉,能回味的,是藏在心里略带轻涩的甜


那些年,我们班上真的没有女孩。就这样和一群热血沸腾的男孩一起长大。枯燥乏闷的生活强迫我们到“外面”找女人。除了补习,就只是课外活动可以认识女生了。让我影响最深刻的就是光华校园记者团,从中学习了好多,交友圈子也扩大了好多。而那时候我们这般男生心目中从此出现了一个沈佳宜。一群少年总是围绕着一个女神。到底是他stick去她,还是她stick过来,这个谜底我们永远都不会知道。我们的沈佳宜,想见吗?

她?当然不是。我们的沈佳宜强多了!而且从不随便穿裙子。

她?差不多了,两者都爱唱歌,但她壮一点 =P

就是她了!我们的沈佳宜!!!

虽然那些年我们学校没有校花,但是却多了一个笑花,带给我们不少的欢乐。

不过多年来的磨练,她虽然还是会向恒发展,但终算越来有女人味,也越来越漂亮了。

可爱吗?

她渐渐的变成了我们的大姐。我们一大班男生出去第一个一定会想要约她。我们的沈佳宜,还是交友非常广阔,会说话,会辩论的呢!而且还是个很好的聆听者,有心事找她就不必见心理辅导了。此外,学业上她也很厉害,办事能力也很强!虽然进不了厨房,但出得了厅堂,也上得了天堂。Shoot 人总是让你死得见不到尸体。所幸我们还有一位柯景藤可以跟她fight过。

“看我的美男计”
观众:“臭鸭干!!!”

只是忽然想起我们的沈佳宜,就写到了她。那些年,我们班上没有女孩,但是有你的陪伴,让我们高中生涯不孤单。谢谢你了,沈佳宜!在此祝福我那般好友考试顺利。那些年,我虽然没尝试过学校有女孩的世界,但却有一段难忘美好与残酷的回忆。

那些年,我们班上没有女孩。。。但是我们还是一样开开心心的活着。=)


后记:沈佳宜,都叫你不要每天stalk我的blog作kepo了咯,还说我的blog有其他更好的用途。现在让你看到一些不应该看的东西了,后悔了吧!=P 你永远是我们的掌上明“猪”。

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Déjà vu

1/11/11. What a great date to post this out. Deja vu, defined as an experience of thinking a new situation had occurred before. This word used to sound spooky to me, but it actually became my 19th birthday theme. More than a week had past, but those memories are still so vivid in my mind. The bliss is something I experienced before, sort of, but this time it's somehow different. Perhaps the deja vu experience is hard to explain. First and foremost, I definitely have to thank the main organiser of my birthday surprise, an important friend of mine:

My sigui roomie (Big Grin)

Thanks for everything you had done for me, I know you understand what I wanna say. You are always a great brother of mine. Really glad to have you by my side. =)

Next, I would like to thank another planar which made 23rd Oct 2011 such a memorable day for me.

Another bestie of mine (eating)

难民,thanks for being the big surprise, somemore your first time planning. I'm really speechless. U know what I wanna say already la. Well, EAT more =P

Before I continue thanking everyone else, let me just simply recall what had happened before and after 23/10/11.

......Recalling......

21/10/2011

Honestly, it is not the happiest day in my life. I mean this is the day where IELTS results were revealed. Besides, the PMCians are having their interview. Refreshing the IELTS website a lot of times already but still failed to show my results. Finally at the final attempt where I said to myself, this time sure kena! The results really popped out. Haiz, but it is not as good as I expected. But still I'm happy most of my friends did extremely excellent. At least their hard work paid off. I'm happy for them, really. Then I followed my classmates to McD for lunch. I'm happy that finally we have a chance to eat together, first time so complete (tom also follow). Then after lunch, Michelle took something out from her bag, saying that's my birthday present. I stunned for awhile, really never expected that from them. Well yea, I know they had prepared something for me, but never expect something so thoughtful and effort and time-spending. I was really touched because they were so thoughtful to buy something that I need for a long time. Somemore, then made a wish chain for me and put it in the bottle, what a big surprise! Thanks my dear classmates: Michelle, Liting jie, Suwen, Chialin, JiaHuey, Rachel, Tom, Laihing, Wihong.

11M8 Forever~

At night, we studied hard for Ethics exam. At least I feel I studied until quite late that night.

22/10/2011

Woke up early in the morning, with a sore in my gums. I dont really feel well that day. Then, we all bertolak dari rumah to INTEC for ethics test. I seriously forgot how I did for Ethics and all I knew was I was the slowest to complete because I really don't feel well during the exam. Hope I still manage to get an A please. When I walked out of the exam hall, I see everyone was waiting outside. Then, we go back together. I didn't join them for lunch that day because I had an ulcer in my gum.

During the afternoon, Yang and Raymond left the room. Made me curious what were they up to....(hmmm)

At night, they made me think that they are going to celebrate my birthday that night. They brought me the taxi stand, making me think I'm going to somewhere else. However, we end up having dinner in Secret Recipe. Opps, sorry guys for making you all spend the money. No cakes, no birthday song, no gifts, I was a bit dissapointed la honestly. After dinner, few friends came to my room to watch Ethics video. Then, I waited anxiously until the clock strikes 12. I get a few wishes from my friends, but nothing special happened that day. What a peaceful night.

23/10/2011

I cant believe I turned 19th already. The day was just normal. Really nothing special happen expect I received a lot of wishes from my friends. It is the first year I celebrate my birthday without my family because I decided to spend that day with my friends, since it will the my last year with them perhaps. Maybe just for a simple dinner, I'm satisfied. Then, raymond told me he's going to subang. I know it's a lie. But oh well, really feel sad a bit liao that time. I mean, how could you leave your roomie alone in hostel huh? But I act like nothing happen, expecting nothing.

Lunch time, Yang came and ajak me to eat with Jack, Sasa and Cimu. My ulcer ache so much that I cant even chew my food. But then, Zoey became the spoiler...Ehem! Made me expecting something at night pulak.

After lunch, I really feel there's nothing special liao. So I decided to walk around see any lonely souls will accompany me that day. Finally, ended up watching a funny movie in Fa ge's room, with wihong and laihing. Made me feel quite satisfied la after the movie, somemore I received calls from my family and CX. Mom asked me how they celebrate with me, whether they still remember my birthday. I said, they got wish me la, then got a simple dinner. Then my mom said, nevermind la, since everyone so busy recently. Celebrate or not doesn't really matter, come back home and we'll celebrate together. At that moment, I really felt a bit sad and felt wanna go back home straight away. =(

When I went back to room, planning to have a good sleep, raymond was already back. Then he asked me to change my clothes as we are going somewhere. He told me we are going to Dawood to celebrate my birthday. At that moment, I really feel it was ridiculous, please dont prank me anymore la. Then I waited with Whoong at the bus stop. Suddenly I saw people coming, first zoey, then qiang ge, lai hing, yang, raymond. Then MJ and skyton came with his DSLR. We went to the taxi and raymond ask the taxi drivers to send us to Dawood. I was really blur what he's up with. We always joked about celebrating our birthday at Dawood, but takkan he's serious?

And so, I went to Dawood with Zoey and MJ. Finally we reached seksyen 6, with RM10. Suddenly I felt the nostalgic feeling. Cendana, the Petronas, Balai Polis, and the only place to eat (Dawood). It was raining that day, dahlah make me feel more nostalgic that day. Then, everyone arrived at Dawood. What a surprise to see Douglas there as well? OMG! Unbelievable, that guy always go back during weekend one leh!!! We sat down as like usual ordered something to eat. I just ordered a cup of milo panas as I couldn't eat anything. Eat chat, laugh. I really love that kinda feeling, couldn't describe that feeling. Finally, Yang and raymond took out a Pak Li porridge for me. They knew I cant eat anything, so they bought that for me. Somemore, it's extra soft one. WOW, really touching leh that time. Wei Yang and raymond so caring one. Although I also eat with pain, I felt very warm inside. =) Thanks guys, seriously that means a lot. Snaps! I just love taking pictures with people around me.
My lovely friends

Finally the pro and handsome cameraman is in. =)

After dinner, they blindfold me and brought me to cendana park. I was expecting the celebration will be there. Just like last year. They lead me to a place, walk...continue walking. Then raymond ask me to turn rounds and when I took off the blindfold, everyone was gone. Deep down inside, I was a bit afraid. Afraid that the old experience will haunt me again. But then, I believe in my friends, I know they wouldn't abandon me just like that. Without my spectacles, I felt insecure. And I had no idea where to head to. I walked through the cendana gate, walk back to our room. 2/208. A lot of memories flashed back. I remember how happy we were although we live in a serba kekurangan place. The smell, the water from the water cooler, Everything! seems to be the same, except the people living there are no longer us, but our juniors. I continue walking, until I reach the end. I still cant find them, so I called raymond. And he asked me to get back to cendana park. Then, I saw all my friends there. What a relieve, I feel like hugging them =) I know what you are up to, I know what is the purpose of blindfolding, abandon, and appear again. I know....

Then, I was blindfolded again and brought to a place. Not again? Blindfold?I really dont like the feeling of seeing nothing but just rely on my senses. But then I feel safe when laihing guided me all along.

Soon, we reached the destination. I really have no idea what place is that. Feels like pasar malam, feels like some natural open air place, feels like I-city? I dunno. Laihing, Raymond and Skyton take turns to guide me walk around the place. Kinda tired walk for so long. I can feel a lot of people around. Then they brought me to a place with a lot of people queing up. Seems like a Ferris wheel, roller coaster? I really have no idea what to expect. After long hours of waiting, Skyton lead me to the ride. I took of the blindfold. Lights! That's what I see. Trees with lights, such a beautiful place. Then I hear friends shouting my name all along the ride, they were all around! Joy! I'm really speechless. A beautiful place with my friends around me. I reminisce the feeling so much. That kinda feeling was like a dream come true. Fairytale? Feels like everything is so perfect? I dunno how to describe it. But I just feel on top of the world that moment.

Finally the ride stops, I was blindfolded again. Jia En(as Jay Chau) sang a special song 彩虹 for me. It is really a song that means a lot to me. =)Then everyone sang along. I could feel all my friends around me. Wow! Then, unfold again...I see sherny holding the birthday cake. "Happy 19th weeding" it says...because I joke with raymond said I want a birthday cake? But I still love cheese cake la. Haha. Everything was just like last year. Deja vu! Then the pranks again lo....LOL....but this year's prank a bit "special". with all those professional makeup artist around. Made me look like 如花?Gosh, feel like slapping myself when I see those photos.

(This site contains images that no one should see, if you are below 18 or above 60, kindly leave this site)


All those who attend are there. I mean all except....guess who?


You know who are them. Ehem! Mei mei and his ehem!

No matter what, seriously I have to thank those 30 people who went so far to I-city and celebrate the special day (birthday) with me. Well, most of you won't be around me already next year. So, I really appreciate you all for coming and brightens up my day. You all shines better than the lights in I-city kay? Sorry if I had neglected some of you during that day coz too many people and pranks liao, but I definitely remember each and everyone of you. To: Sister, yang yang, potato, qiang ge, skyton (顿顿), ah jiek, cimu, douggy, laihing, sherny, dan dan, cinv, jack jack, sasa, check lung, mei mei, jiaying, chew kwee, teddy, wilson, fa ge, jielun, deng lijun, 38, sying, chunwei, ah ma, daughter, xiao xin xin, charsiew and sai zat!!! Thank you so much!!!! I mean it!

Then like tradition la, I was asked to do something that humiliate myself T.T. Go take picture with stranger and walk around I-City. Thank god I think I scared away a lot of people with my looks. =P When I came back, more surprise to come. They (sister, cinv, yang yang, fa ge, and wihong) made me a big and special birthday card and folded me a lot of cameras which I wanted. I always wanted a camera to capture the blissful moments I spent with you all. Now that I have your photos on the card, I am really happy. Thanks for spending so much effort and time doing that for me. I will keep it nicely de. =) And sherny spent dunno how long wrote "essays" for me...really gan dong lo. thank you too..and the presents from sherny, jiaying, cheesiew, suhuey, xiu xin and jia en. Finally the 3-in-1 present selected by raymond I suppose. A belt that I always wanted to buy. Very thoughtful leh. Thanks to everyone who shared that present as well. I like it so much. Not to mention a special fan made by douggy with all my close friends' picture on it. I know you spent such a long time making that too. Thank you everyone!!!!

Then we jalan-jalan, talk-talk awhile before going back. Me, raymond and laihing follow, sehying and chun wei's car back. But other friends were stuck in I-city, just like last year. Deja Vu again. Raymond was so "gan jiong" that time. Planner ah planner, 辛苦你了。Luckily everyone reached hostel during the eleventh hour. Sei taxi driver and pak guard ah! Can't you all be more responsible (former) and less responsible (latter). And I received a call from zhen teng that night. So happy to hear from him, too bad the line sucks.

On that particular night, it rekindles an important friendship as well. It's really a dream-come-true day. A sleepless night it was, I slept very very late that night because I was too happy, raymond was sleepless as well. =) Intoxicated by the joy followed by my 18th and 19th birthday, I am really overwhelmed. Sincerely from the bottom of my heart, Thank you everyone! I mean it!



Post birthday syndrome
1. I love the people around me more.
2. I cleaned the hostel on 24th Oct 2011 for the first time?
3. I belanja my classmates domino on that night.
4. I'm happy till now, even after more than one week had passed.
5. I'm hoping time pass slower so that I can spend with the people around me more.

Eh, forgot to mention, raymond and me actually wear the same shirt like last year? Deja Vu again. =)

This Year/ Last Year

I am just too happy to study now. HEEEEEEE!!!!!


Behind the Scene (spoilers)

I came to realised the plan due to several reasons:

(to-be-continue)

Friday, September 2, 2011

快乐

有时候,快乐就那么的简单。要求得越少,得到时开心指数就越高。还是人家平时所说的“期望越高,失望越大”吧!

今天为一个好友挑了份迟来的礼物。半夜三更跑到他家送礼。只见他那开心又感激的模样,是我从来都没见过的。

感触:有时候有人对我们好,我们就把他当成是理所当然。等到有一天,他忽然不再对你好时,你才开始埋怨。人就是这么“犯贱”,永远把他所拥有的当成是必然的,是应该的。到底何时才会知足,惜福呢?而我。。。又说到做到吗?哈哈哈!