Goodbye 2009

So used to it writing 2009 at the end of the date everytime. And now, 2010 is approaching in less than 1 hours' time. While I totally loss hold of the time, a year had just ended in a twinkling of an eye.

I'm turning 18 now. An age that indicates maturity. Brushing through the cobwebs of time, pieces of memories run through my mind. Year 2009, a year which I fought hard for SPM, a year which I convinced myself for better changes. Not far enough I leap though, not as far as I expected I could. Towards 2010, a brand new year....a year which I should be standing firm, aiming the target and hit the bull's eye. There's a lot in mind after SPM. NS is awaiting for me very soon and I still feels like a kid that can't adapt to changes easily. At the age of 18, I have much much more to concern. Got to be confident in making decisions, go to grow more mature, go to be tougher and much much more to learn. The figure 18 somehow made me anxious. KL, Pangkor, Genting and Penang trip might just gave me a doze good enough to replenish my exhausted spirit.

2010, here I comes! I want and I could be a better man. Welcome 2010!!!

SPM

SPM had just ended in the blink of an eye, for real! Still remember after the last paper, there were fire crackers, shaking hands, goodbye hugs, "burn book" rituals and many more. It all indicates that another chapter of my life had ended. Part of my history now. Haven't been blogging for quite some time as my life had been saturated with hectic schedules. To sum it up, SPM was quite okay for me but my biggest concern was accountancy and chinese. 11 subjects in approximately one month's time, it was quite relaxing though as we had short intervals between papers.

Once after SPM, I followed my friends to City Plaza for bowling. Kelz and Ray joined us as well. I scored 100+ with 2 strikes in a row. Quite a good attempt for my first try. We also met Syed, Shami and others there. Later, the others went CC to play DOTA. Ray requested me to teach him about facebook. At night, Eric had a party and we had steamboat and BBQ. Big prwans and crabs kept stimulating my taste buds. After that, CJ, BC, GH and CX came to my house and chat until midnight. No pics were taken though.

On the second day, the school reporters were having a meeting and Chiew was the chairman. I went to meet up with them and decided to attend the Facon edu fair together. The meeting ended late and e had chicken chop for lunch. We reach Holiday Villa at about 2. Really felt sorry because I promised a few persons to meet up with them there but I was late. Crowds of people there, not much chance to ask in details as it was all about MONEY!!! Of course, I met many friend there. After that, we followed CX's car to AS mall to sing. Almost used up all our money, we picked the cheapest package with no food and drinks. Though, we really had fun there and stayed 40 minutes longer than the time provided. Luckily they didn't charged us extra. We took a video clip and suggested it to be post on facebook. Though, I wouldn't want to embarass myself.

Third day, BC, CX and I went back to our school for a jog. I decided to do so because I hadn't go for sports for such a long time. How am I going to survive NS with such a poor stamina? We took pictures more then we jog, but it was still fun. Cikgu Rozaini was coatching tennis and we chatted with him for awhile. Back home, I asked 2 large boxes from mom and decided to clean up 4 large stacks of "knowledge". It was really tiring. Life after SPM is not relaxing at all. Too much in mind. A mixture of relief and tense, there are really much things to be done in a short period of time. Goodbye SPM.

(Pics will be uploaded..._

Last for November

Boredom is an extreamely difficult feeling to tolerate or overcome as it dulls the senses and agitates the mind. And so, I decided to blog down this last post until the major exam comes to an end. Either holding the book or sitting in front of the PC, I realised that SPM is just few days apart. Perhaps, like Yang said "the feeling of free, yet busy" is just right to describe my feelings. Long and tedious lecture in school and tuition classes had come to an end. Several weeks after the trial examination, I still think that I am not prepared for SPM. Yes, perhaps I do scored quite well for trial. But that's what making me more anxious. "Students usually score better in SPM compared to their trial", they would say, but am I really capable to achieve what I expect? Lack of confidence, anxiety dwells within. Being rather pessimistic, I am worried why am I still relaxing at this crutial period. Shouldn't I just fight for my future? I guess I will need to prove to myself that I am able to muster all my courage and determination to overcome obstacles. This is a determination that I know will stand me in good stead in my future endeavours.

Before I end my post, I would like to wish my seniors and juniors which will be sitting for their final exams good luck. Nevertheless, to all SPM candidates, ALL THE BEST!!!

23rd October

I'm 17 now, eligible to get my driving license now. Maybe after my SPM. As the clock struck 12 am on 23rd October, I started receiving calls from my brothers, wishes from my family, text messages from my friends etc.... Can't imagine so many of them still remember my birthday. Really appreciate their wishes a lot.

Thanks to my family who gave me a treat, and to my brother who gave me a present though he's staying so far away. Just felt so lucky. Haha...

My friends did take some trouble to plan for a surprise party for me. We went out to celebrate and of course the bill is quite costly. Besides, I receive some funny presents from my Tatt, JJ, Hong and CX. I can't stop laughing when I know their motive. KZ and YC bought me a lottery as well. Thanks again to all my family and friends who made 23rd October meaningful to me.

At the age of 17 now, I may only be a teenager preparing for the SPM examination, but I feel that I had just grown up. A year older, a year wiser I guess. Fliping through Chapter 17 of my life, here I come.

Changes

Some ideas somehow struck me suddenly. I realised that humans need to change. We need and we will change through time. Changes, improvement, adaption and succession, to be more specific. Yes, evolution makes this world mobile. We can never stay at our comfort zone hoping that things will remain the same forever. At the age of 17, suddenly I realised that I am a big boy now. I can't depend on others to take care of me. "Lagi 2 bulan, kamu akan masuk IPT", my teacher suddenly said to the class. In that moment,I know that I should not just mature physically, should grow mentally as well. I need to learn how to make decisions, be more independant, improve my attitude and habits now. I need a change and I will CHANGE!

Like Michael said "Just have a little faith!"

离巢

就这样，燕子在巢中度过的五个春夏秋冬。燕子非常了解自己在巢中的日子剩下不多了。燕子长大了，已是时候翱翔自由的天空，往自己理想之地飞去。 燕子一眼望去天上的繁星，回忆起他与一群好友一起学习，嬉戏，寻找食物的日子。偶尔被狂风暴雨打伤了，总有其他燕子不断给予他扶持安慰。日子不多了，燕子总得离开他那居住了五年的鸟巢，离开他那群好友的呵护。巢中实在是有太多东西燕子总放不下的。燕子的长辈们，花尽心思栽培燕子，好让他能够在那浩瀚宇宙中生存。燕子珍惜巢中长兄们曾经无私的帮助他，教诲他，信任他。燕子重来没忘记每个兄长如此宽待过他。此刻，燕子了解“大海宽阔”的道理，每接受一滴河水，就让一滴河水流出。只有这样，大海才不会变成“死海”。因此，燕子把它每接受到的一份恩惠都献给了巢中的小燕子们。但愿小燕子们有一天总能比他更加出色。

当然，燕子也无法忘记他那班最好的朋友。记得曾经三五成群的一同捕抓猎物，一同分享食物的日子。偶尔天气转寒，燕子们得忍受寒冷的天气，互相用体温来温暖对方。就这样，五年的光阴刹那间就快过去了。燕子们离巢的日子快到了。也许这一别便是永别。又或许上帝会同情燕子们，让他们有重逢的缘分。燕子实在有太多的不舍了，但那又有何用呢？燕子忽然回忆起长兄曾告诉过他一句话“要好好珍惜！”。然而，当燕子领悟到这个道理时，一切会不会迟了些？回忆起过往的点点滴滴，燕子充满了眷恋与相思的泪水化作雨水，滋润了整个大地。此时此刻，燕子真情的落泪了。。。。。

Poem

Exams

It is not something you would like,
Makes you stay up late at night,
Just prepare yourself for a fight,
There is no more place to hide,
I think it is just a worsening plight,
Exams I want you to be out of sight.

Tonnes of books is where I dive,
Stabbing myself with thousands of knife,
But it is how I struggle to survive,
Exams are like bee hives,
Facing it almost took my life,
Luckily I am still alive.

Life in school is so hectic and busy,
In class I felt so dizzy,
Hoping that exams will be easy,
Praying that I am always lucky,
I think I must be plucky,
Before exams turns me crazy.